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[Apr. 6th, 2006|10:31 pm] |
so heres the deal ..
im in love with my ex and when i told him that .. he said "you had your chance .. get over it" .. those words hurt me soo bad that for da past few days ive been soo messed up and cant seem to focus on anythin except that
he cant even ask how im doing nd he damn right knows that im soooo hurt and the fact that i am still in love with you even tho he did say the wrong things but i guess he doesnt know how love feels =(
since im da person who doesnt really let sum things out .. i figure mayb doin it here would help .. so whoever reads this you'll prolly be the only person who's gonna know bout da thoughts running inside of me that no one else knows of ..
so im hurt mostlyyy by himm but today i got a lil more hurt to find out that my best friend who should be da first person to support me .. to visit me .. call a lot to see how im doin isnt really doin her job .. im goin thru such a rough time nd shes the only one who knows everythin nd every time she calls i would be cryin on da phone .. so hopefully she gets the point at where im at .. that im hurtt so much nd it will take a while for me to recover .. well instead of being there with me nd tryin to put a smile on my face .. shes goin out to da movies wit da guy who i love .. no she doesnt like him but they are close friends nd i understand that she hasnt hung out wit him in a while .. but c'mon .. im fuckin hurt here .. cryin every single night .. my heart hurts nd seriously if i get hurt more i will be close to havin a heart attack .. but she decides to go with him to da movies which she can do that any day cuz hes not hurt nd he could care less if i love him or not nd it just kills to know that ..
i havent been able to smile for a week now .. the people who are really supportin me are friends that i just met lately nd it kills me to know that my close and true friends arent there .. helpin me out the way they should =(
ehhh im just goin crazy nd each day is just worse nd worse .. i dont kno wat to do
but i guess im done .. i mentioned wat bothered me da most .. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|11:16 am] |
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I LOVE HIM
yet it kills me to kno that he doesnt feel the same bout me ..
nd it hurts so deep inside knowing i cant have him bak
i realized over the past month or two that even tho our relationship was possibly not the greatest nd things really didnt work out .. i would do just about anythin to go bakk to that time nd start all over again .. cuz wat i lost wasnt just anythin it was someone who i realized i love and im crazy about !! ive NEVER felt this strong vibe for anyone before nd its amazing how he makes me feel when im around him .....
nd i keep thinkin ..
just wat if i had one more chance .. but the truth is i wont nd prolly never will but if i did .. i would be just about the happiest grl to have him in my life tho he is nd hes a greatt close friend but i wanna give him my heart <3
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[Sep. 19th, 2005|11:46 am] |
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-> SuNdAy <-
I woke up .. sat wit mii parents n ate breakfast wit them .. and then mii & mii mom went shoppin for mii heelz to match my homecomin dress !! yayy i finally found green shoes that match !! i also bought 2 more pari of heelz n a purse n then we went to Payless Shoes .. Sam's .. Publix .. Ross .. Stain Mart .. & Bellz Outlet !! after dat .. we came home n i just tried on all mii shit and later Nela came to mii house and we just chilled n crap !! she went home & i did mii hmwk n talked to mii babii =] !! <3 i luv him <3 !!!
>> R i G h T
N o W <<
im here chillin at lunch wit Dali at school .. yayy i got to see mii babii as soon as lunch is over !! but anywayz im out
iLl hOlLa bAkK !!
<33 |
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[Sep. 18th, 2005|09:27 am] |
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DamN !! i havent written in this thing .. its been 4ever !! i havent
written since April ??
Okay sO let me start off wit da summer ....
Summer was a lot of funn !! me n a
couple of friends got a weekday annual pass for Wet n Wild .. so we
went there every chance we got !! me n da grlz went clubbin almost
every weekend !! Mii friend Antonela had her friend Lidija come down
from Boznia so we just chilled wit her n went everywhere !! I miss her
:( .. we went to da movies .. shoppin .. parties n all dat good stuff
!! im not gonna get too much in detail but dats bout all ive been doin
dis summer but it was a lot of fun !!
so school started .. n its goin
pretty good !! im not doin good in 2 of mii classes but hopefully ill
rise those grades up !! we have A LOT of new ppl in our school .. but
damn the freshman are da hottest !! n every1 know's that !! but mii grl
Dali goes to Lake Howell n we got 2 classes 2getha so dats always a
good thing !! but since i dotn really like school .. ama stop wit da
subject !!
I GOT MII SELF A MAN !! WE'VE BEEN
TOGETHER FOR A WEEK N 3 DAYS ALREADY AND I KNOW THERES MONTHS TO COME
!! HE JUST MAKES ME SOOO HAPPY !! HES PERFECT !! HIS KISSES N HUGS ARE
PRICELESS AND I JUST LOVE HIM MORE THAN DIS WORLD CAN OFFER !!
<33 9/8/05
anywayz .. ama start writin in here more often !! but im out now.. *xoxo* |
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[Apr. 24th, 2005|09:37 pm] |
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.:*fRiDaY*:.
afteR schOOl muh dad tOOk me tO Stain Mart sO that i can buy muhself a purSe which is sOO kute !! n den when i came bakk i tOOk a shOweR n packed muh stuff n gOt Ready n left fOR jacksOnville wit muh paRents !! when we gOt theRe (( which tOOk 2 lOng hRz )) we fiRst went tO a bOsnian stORe n den went tO a bOsnian cafe .. afteRwaRds went tO the Dino Merlin cOnceRt .. i sat theRe wit muh paRents til iRma gOt theRe and den we just hung Out til dinO staRted singing ... WOW HE HAS AN AMAZING VOICE N HE LOOKS GORGEOUS !!! .. but fuckin teenageRz Of 18 yRz Or sO had tO fuck eveRythin up by gettin dRunk n staRting fights which was sOO fucking gay but wateva .. afteR da cOnceRt me n muh paRents weRe suppOse to spend da night at a hOtel n den da next mORning gO 2 st.augustine n dOwntOwn but instead we just decided 2 gO bakk hOme .. sO gOt hOme rOund 2 & went stR8 2 bed !!!
.:*SaTuRdAy*:.
wOke up late .. just hung Out wit muh paRents n junk til dey staRted gettin Ready since dey weRe gOin bakk to jax fOr anOtheR paRty thing Or wateveR .. but afteR dey left i just hung rOUnd .. cleaned da hOuse .. n den zOran n muh bRO came n picked me up n we went Out tO cici's fOR dinner .. went tO pik up daRkO .. went 2 blOckbusteR .. n den we all came bakk tO muh place n watched da mOvies
.:*SuNdAy*:.
wOke up rOund 12 .. n da whOle day just hung aROund .. didnt NOTHING til we staRted da family bbq thing .. sO muh cuzins came OveR n just chilled wit em n dats bOut it .. nOw i gOtta gO take a shOweR n get muh shii stR8 4 schOOl 2mOROw
im Out
* CANT WAIT TIL FRIDAY TO GO 2 UPPER LEVEL .. * |
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[Apr. 24th, 2005|12:25 am] |
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ZEKO!!
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[Apr. 17th, 2005|07:01 pm] |
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so ...
da week dayz are da same ... SchOoL --> sLeeP --> eaT ... ThuRsdaY i had a trainer at da gym n damnn dat boy was hard on me shiii !!! but its all good cuz he was kute ;-) .. but yahh
so Friday .. you would think yeahh she prolly went 2 Upper Level but actually i just stayed home n went 2 bed at like 9 or so .. woke up saturday at 10:30 .. chilled wit muh bro n Alen // cleaned da house n watered muh ma's plants // muh cuzins Darko n Daco came over n chilled wit em // got ready n den muh cuzinz drove me 2 Nelas ... Zana picked us up along wit Dali n Veca n we headed to Upper Level .. well we found out dat only da first 100 ppl get in free so wateva but i got to see ppl from school n Chris .. met up wit Nick .. got into da club and hardly any1 was there but it was fun cuz by da end of da night more ppl came .. umm left round 1 .. came bakk to Nelas place n slept at her house ...
2day woke up .. me n Nela ate .. did her hw .. n den we went to da mall wit Zana .. came bakk to Nelas place // ate // went to Walgreens wit Nela, Dali n Veca // now im just doin dis junk n waitin for muh dad to pik me up
ama go chill wit Nela
muahzz <3 Maja |
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[Apr. 12th, 2005|08:48 pm] |
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-> fRiday <-
.. chiLLed afTeR schooL & den sTaRTed geTTin Ready Round 7 oR so n den headed down 2 NeLas .. and so me Zana n Nela wenT 2 Upper LeveL and dis Time iT wasnT daT gReaT buT iT was sTiLL fun .. Dali n her sis came LaTeR on and LiLi n heR fRiend .. so afTeRwaRds muh dad came n picked us up n i Took NeLa Zana DaLi n Veca home
and i came home // aTe // n wenT 2 sLeep
-> saTuRday <-
.. woke up Late & jusT chiLLed Round // didnT do much buT neLa came oveR daT nighT n we jusT chiLLed n wenT To bed eaRLy since we weRe tiRed ...
-> sunday <-
.. we woke up Round 10: 30 and aTe // foR Lunch we wenT To muh aunTs n aTe // so afTeRwaRds muh paRenTs Took us To Look aT The houses he boughT and we mighT be moving To a new house in Oviedo buT ama sTiLL be going To Lake howeLL :-) !! so we came home .. Took a waLk .. n den jusT chiLLed Round // afTeR neLa LefT i jusT waTched Tv n wenT To sLeep
-> monday <-
.. da usuaL // didnT ReaLLy do anyThin excepT go To The gym which i havenT gone in foReveR so i had fun :-) .. came home Took a showeR n den wenT To sLeep
-> Today <-
.. same shiT as monday excepT i Took a nap afTeR schooL
i Love muh baby jeRmaine !!! im soo happy daT im wiTh him n i wouLdnT change iT 4 da woRLd (( aT LeasT foR now )) |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|10:29 pm] |
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sUnDaY : i basically did nuttin .. just chilled round da house n went 2 da gym n den got ready 4 school
mOnDaY : school went by pretty good .. i was HAPPY to see muh baby JerMaine :-] !! da story wit me n him iz im real happy that im with him n he makes me feel so happy n good !!! sLept after school n just did hw later on .. so n so
ToDaY : i couldnt handle school 2day for da fact dat i was soo damn tired n sleepy :-( i was soo close to callin muh mom from work to come n get me but i didnt wanna bother her :-/ ... so i got home after school n da guy who put a new garage door 2day was there n i was locked out so i had to wait for muh mom to come home so i was sittin in front of muh house n he asks me where im from n i told him Bosnia n hes like "me too" lol so dat was interesting n hes from Sarajevo like me .. yeahh go us!!! .. muh mom put labels on boxes in our garage so he saw that n knew we were bosnian .. so muh mom got home n as soon as i got in da house .. i headed str8 2 da bed n slept good 3 hrs .. woke up started on muh hw n just chilled .. was still tired 2 go 2 da gym so i just relaxed at home n talked on da fone ... so Alexis' bday is comin up next friday n yeahh us 6 grlz are gettin a hotel // goin bungi jumping // and throwin a hotel party n havin guys yeahhhh cant wait !!!!!! so dats dat
** im hopin dis friday i head out 2 Upper Level again **
Monday is Anjas n Titos bday .. n Dino Merlin concert iz 22nd yeahh i get to go n chill wit Irma n dance our asses off n da next day (( da 23rd )) iz Zekos bday n his party soo yeahh dis month is gonna rock !!!
but im out 4 now
take care
<3 Maja |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|09:46 am] |
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okay so .. FRIDAY NIGHT WAS AMAZING :-D !!!
of course i went to school duhh and after school i just chilled 4 a lil n den i went 2 go get a haircut !! yeahh n i like it (( i got it like an inch shorter n den a whole bunch of layers )) so i came bak home .. jumped in da shower .. n started gettin ready 4 uPpEr LeVeL !!!!!! went 2 Nelas and then Zana Nela n me went :-) .. we got there n da line was longg mann .. we waited in line for like more than 30 mins and we meet up wit LiLi .. so we got into da club n meet up wit Shelby Tasha n Amanda .. so we all went into da Reggaeton room n no one was freakin dancin so i told da grlz to go where we danced last time n wow as soon as we started dancing .. all da guys surrounded us .. lol cuz of course we do attract guys c'mon now ;-) !! so i just basically danced with diff guys n when i was dancin wit one of da guyz i looked up n saw dis fyne guy n we had eye contact for bout 10 secs n i just smiled n looked away (( l8er i found out his name was Mike )).. so l8er on i was leaning against da bar thing n Nela was dancin on me n Mike comes bakk and keeps scaring at us .. so once a diff song started playin Nela pulls me to da dancefloor and of course i start dancing and Mike comes up behind me n soo we danced together da whole night .. things sorta got out of hand n well thats only gonna stay wit muh babies who were there wit me lol .. yall kno wat im talking bout the "Maja had her own lil fun" thing lol .. LiLi drove me n Nela bakk to Nelas place since i was spendin da night there n we just talked bout da club n went 2 sleep .. da next morning we woke up // chilled // ate // n just talked more bout da club n how sum guyz cant dance lol :-P .. round 4 we went to her soccer game .. which i frooze muh ass off lol and she lost :-( 4:1 .. but da wind fucked up da game so its all good .. we went to CiCi's afterwards n ate .. got bakk to her house n just chilled n den i went home .. came bakk to muh place // took a shower // chilled wit muh bro n watched tv // n i went 2 bed early cuz i didnt get enuf sleep friday night n i was madd tired (( muh legz were killing me from dancin mann )) so now im up early again n i donno wat im doin 2day ?? ..
im out // take care
<3 Maja
fRiDaY --> I LOVE YOU GRLZ SOOO MUCH !!! I HAD SOO MUCH FUN (( NOT ONLY BECUZ OF BEIN WIT DAT KID .. BUT JUST BEING WITH YOU GUYZ ;-) )) N WE SHOULD MOST DEF GO AGAIN FRIDAY !!! |
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